After a lovely weekend with my friends I am sitting on the sofa and smiling. We had a beautiful day at Chester Zoo followed by drinks. It was the kind of day that could be described as ‘perfect’. We laughed, we chatted, the sun was shining. All in all a gorgeous day out. The only thing that makes it less so is knowing I cant ring her up and tell her about it. She would love hearing about all the animals and the fun we had. She always encouraged me to enjoy life to the full and I for one believe I do. Someone reading this might think “you went to the Zoo, calm down!”. I think its all these little moments stitched together in a rich tapestry that make up life. She felt the same.
Out ritual conversations every evening were a big part of my life. They are gone now. I will never have another one. I should be feeling really sad right now however I’m not. I’m sat on the sofa, thinking of her. I’m smiling.
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