Day 47: Healthy body healthy mind.

Ok so I’ve adopted a new approach to my ever present grief that I never thought I would be saying. For the past three weeks I have been eating rather healthy. OK so what does that mean exactly? No I’m not living on lettuce leaves and carrots. I will never turn into that kind of boy. God id spend the whole time craving a cheeseburger! No I have been actively watching everything I eat. I’ve cut out salt and caffeine and replaced them with pepper and boiling water and lemon/oranges. I have one day a week were I treat myself as I couldn’t give up my love for pasta and Chinese food completely. Just Eat you have not lost a customer just yet….

Three weeks into this and I feel fitter, I have more energy and I also think I am a little more happy. My alcohol consumption has dramatically decreased. I was never a full blown alcoholic by any means however I did partake a drink every week as habit. That’s exactly what it was, habit. I think I used alcohol in the early stages to process my feelings. That didn’t really get me anywhere as you just end up feeling like shit the day after, the senses are also heightened so you cry at a leaf falling on the ground. In the glorious month of July I had a few drinks with friends to see the marvellous Alaska Thunderfuck.

Note. Alaska Thunderfuck is a world famous drag queen made famous by Rupaul’s Drag Race.

Note. Also see Gay Culture for more information.

I have also been exercising a lot more. The word used to be a death sentence for me. The very thought of it made me cringe. I have got back into swimming which I love and have been going twice a week. I have also taken to nice long walks around the woods when my head feels particularly cloudy. As I sit here typing this I am sitting my a little vodka and lime as I am heading out with Dazzles tonight. This new plan is not about ‘dieting’ or depriving myself. It is all about being sensible and enjoying things in moderation.

As I sit here 9lbs lighter and more bouncy I feel a little bit lighter in my mood. Still I might have a glass of red tonight while I’m out. Its what she would of wanted, and I will think of her when I do. She was incredible.